flat...

okies... well it seems that i have had a few complaints about not updating this. So here i am...
i have been SO busy lately...
group last week was hard... i dint quite realise how many probs i had at the moment with my relationships. nothing that major, just things that mum said that really got to me really... well i was in a real state last thurs, and spent most of the night crying. But i think i have got it kinda sorted now... at least i hope. it was getting to me so badly and i never realised it. Have talked it all through with paul now, which was very difficult to do... i just knew that he wouldn't understand properly the way in which my mind plays tricks on me.
my mind has been a bit all over the palce lately anyway... and that is prob due to messing with my meds... my moods have been all over the place. i know that i shouldn't take my meds just when i feel like it, and not when i am not... but at the time i just feel like i dont need them so i dont bother, and then looking back i can see that actually i do need them. i norm dont like to miss my mood stabillizer tho, i am to scared of the outcome of not having it. but i had no choice the other night as i ended up staying out the night and i had no meds on me (teaches me a lesson to carry spare meds on me) and instead of going manic, which is what i thought would happen, i went the other way, and felt aweful...
this however had a good effect, cus it made me turn to God. i knew that the thoughts and feelings running through my mind were not from him, and i needed to rebuke them and turn to God for help, which he did :D.
God is amazing and can get you through anything if only you turn to him and rely on him!

in easy tigers we were looking at joshua, 1 (amongst other stuff)
and this is one of the things we really took from the study, which really helps me more with times of trouble. The verse that we really took away with us was the following (i would like to say now, that all verses i quote from in my blogs are all taken from the ESV)

" Have i not commanded you? be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the lord your God is with you wherever you go" (Joshua 1:9)

isnt that great. we dont need to be frigtened of anything, because the lord our God is with us wherever we go. this means that we can turn to him at any time. I'snt that awsome!!
i think this is an appropriate time to teach you the words SLAVA NA BOGA, which i am sure you have noticed is the name of this blog... it means praise the lord, or Glory to God, in bulgarian!!!

anyway enough about how screwed up my moods are atm...

on to the Good stuff...

i have been offered a flat, not only have i been offered a flat, i have accepted it and i move in on the 28th of this month... that is less then 2 weeks away now!!! scary or what...
everyone has been saying that i have really fallen on my feet again, but there is only one reason... i prayed and put it into Gods hands. God only wants the best for our lives and so if i leave it for him then he is going to supply me with the place that is best for me. SO many people thought that living where i am now was not good, but i knew that it was what God wanted, and even though it has been hard it has taught me SO much, and taught me things that will help me. ONLY good has come from me living here, however much at times it has been hard... but then that all goes back to the hard times being our training. it is SO true.
so yer... he has provided a flat quicker then expected, its really nice (will post pics when i find my cable) and in a good area... which is fantastic... not only that, its also on the ground floor!!! PRAISE GOD SO MUCH.

The reason for asking God to provide me with a nice flat in a good area, according to his will is due to the verses in Matthew that tell us to ask and we will recieve.

"And whatever you ask in prayer, you will recieve, if you have faith."
(Matthew 21:22)

Its not wrong to ask God for things if the reason behind asking is one that is not for greed.
now all i have to do is rely on God and trust that he will provide me with the relevant money/grants/donations of furniture to kit my flat out with the basic things that i need.
God is great and i know that he will provide me with everything that i will need.
i will continue to pray and trust. and not going to worry. the bible is very clear that we should not worry and this is mentioned esp in matthew 6:25-34, and also phillipians 4:6.
God will provide me with the strength i need to get through the next 2 weeks and i know that i can do anything through christ phillipians 4:13.

i had a great weekend too, very exhasting one... but it was great... i went to a 1920's theamed part, and then was awake all night. God provided me with strength to be able to walk back to mine which was awesome :D (picture of me and paul in costume)
then on the sunday i went to portsmouth with my family and paul for my grandma's 60th bday party:D it was really good, and the family actually got on for once:) YAY!! paul even got to push me around town in a wheelchair which he really enjoyed!!
God has been really gracious this weekend and has helped SO much with all sorts of things.

also had great things like alpha away day, and alpha tonight which were fab. i may poss have to help lead the next one, which will be my absalute pleasure since it is the topic 'does God still heal today' and i have plenty of personal experiance on that topic :D.
anyway this is already extreamly long... but before i go... praise points

- thank you God so much for supplying me with a nice flat, in a nice area... which is also ground floor, next to a bus stop(at the end of the path), and literally next door to the docs. also that it is already carpeted and has a power shower in the bath so i can choose a bath or shower!! :D

- for teaching me so much
- for helping me get home sun morn
- for grandma's party running smoothly
- for the people that came to you at the alpha away day
- for continuing strengthening of my family
-for my pain levels not being so high
- for being able to walk a little bit better
- and for all the other things that you have done in my life recently and will continue to do in my life (there are too many things to write here now!!!)

THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!

AMEN.