quick update

hey guys,
i am SO sorry that i haven't blogged in such a long time, but as some of you are aware i have not been at all well, and i still am not.
i am unable to keep fluids down, and am having probs with food too, i have even got so desperate i have taken to eating baby food as its more gentle on the stomach... was even slightly sick on that. the only thing i havent had to much probs with so far is scrambled egg on toast. i am slightly sick after that, but not as much as i am on some other stuff.
sorry i know that this is not the nicest of blog posts... but this is more for my records that i am typing this now.
At least i am not as ill as i was a few weeks ago when i was in hospital. It was a rather scary experiance... especaialy as i wasn't even able to pick a bible up. i am still having some probs with reading my bible though, as concentration levels are not good at all.
i think the most scary thing though was my heart... its not been much below 100 recently, and in hosp it managed to go to 174... i couldn't breath and had to have an oxygen mask to breath through, i had cheast pain, and i lost all feeling in my arms. i was scared that i was having a heart attack... i prayed as much as i could in the situation and paul and tigz prayed too, and slowley my pulse began to drop again. The ECG was high but normal. So that was a relief all round!!
i was in hosp for a week in the end... even had the chance to talk about God with some of the nurses and patients which was really nice:)
was back in A&E on monday as i started being sick again, and aparently looked as ill as i did in hosp...
God is amazing, and is always there looking after us even if sometimes we dont think he is... sometimes i have to remember that when i am this ill. But God is in full control and knows what is happening!!
God is teaching me a lot too... he is teaching me how much i need to depend on him and not on myself in times on trouble. To let him be my rock! my prayer life has got slightly better again through being ill... so it really shows that God uses all bad for good!!:D
i want to say a HUGE thank you to Paul and Tigz especially for all the help and hard work that they put in whilst i was ill, it was really hugely appreciated... and Tigz i really hope that you get your bounce back soon!!! am praying for your recovery! thanks to all the others out there that helped whilst i was ill, with visiting, praying or just being there to support paul and tigz. THANK YOU ALL!!!!!
anyway i should go now as i need to go to bed!! But 1st........

PRAISE GOD POINTS!!!!!!!

- for God teaching me so much through being ill
- for all the help and support God has given to me
- to my friends and family, who have been amazing (and i also want to say a HUGE thank you to everyone that has supported me in prayer!!!!!!)
- for the doctors and nurses that looked after me whilst i was ill
- for giving me most of my strength back even though i am still ill
- for your wonderful creation
- for paul, my wonderful boyfriend
- for being sovereign!:D

AMEN!!!!!!!!!