trust in God for strength!

Well what a muppet i have been the last few days.
I woke up this morning the same as i have for the last few days, feeling misrable. I had no idea why, i have been reading my bible and praying more then i have been recently and really learning a lot from scripture. I thought that i should be happy after all i have God on my side looking after me. The thing that was getting me down more was how ill i have been. I am still i'll and i was fed up. I was trying to rely on my own strength to get me through...

I woke up this morning and felt that i had to read some more of Humility true Greatness by C.J Mahaney. I haven't read any of this book recently as when i have felt up to reading i have either been reading C.J's Christ our mediator, finding passion at the cross, a very good book again by C.J. It was a very challenging book that really made me think a lot, or the bible.
i picked up the book and started to read. Not far in to where i left off i reached the following passage
"One morning i am profoundly aware that God is near to me, while the next day i can sense only his absence. In a matter of hours i go from what seems to be an effortless experience of pure joy to asking, "where are you? Where did you go?"
The fact is of course, He didn't go anywhere. Yesterday He allowed me to sense His presence; today He seems to be sending the message, " I want you to grow more in your trust in Me; therefore, I'm withdrawing that sense of My nearness."

The passage highlighted in blue is the passage that really struck me, i realised that this passage was true to me, not only did i realise that, i realised how much i had been relying on my strength and not God's during this time. " I want you to grow more in your trust in me;" those words seemed to jump out of the book and hit me. God wants me to grow more in my trust with him. He gives me these times of trial to learn these things, and that is what i hope has happened!

It is during our times of weakness that we are most strong, we hear paul saying the following in 2 corinthians 12:9-10
But he said to me, " My grace is sufficiant for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore i will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. " For the sake of Christ, then i am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions and calamities. For when i am weak, then i am strong."

we should really use our times of weakness to grow in trust of God, to allow God to give us his strength instead of relying on our own! obviously we need to do this always and not just in times of weakness, but as i am sure that you are all aware if you are at all like me, it is during times of weakness that we are least likely to remember. Let God be your strength at all times. Don't let your own pride get in the way, as God hates pride!

PRAISE GOD

- for showing me all you have shown me today
- for all you have taught me through your word over the last few days
- for all my friends, family and b/f paul
- for your awesome creation
- for people that write books that show us you
- for your word
- for all those who have encouraged me lately

Amen